when i think of purging, i think of throwing up after eating. apparently laxatives, compulsive exercise, and any way to get rid of food are ways of purging. because of that, i am considered bulimic. I’m finally diagnosed and i don’t have to be clueless anymore.

     i’m not going to school anymore because i’m doing days at renfrew now, so i go there every day including weekends from 8am to 4:30pm. the meals there are difficult for me, but it’s better than the starving/binging/purging cycle. it’ll help break that, i’m sure. i believe i can do this.  

     i miss enjoying all the things i used to enjoy. i miss feeling. i want to feel. i want to be happy to wake up everyday. i want to think about other things other than food. i want to be happy. i really encourage everyone to choose recovery. there’s more to life than thinking every second of the day about calories, or your next meal. please don’t give up. you don’t want this, you know you don’t. you’re all beautiful, i promise.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU<3   inbox me if you want, i don’t bite.